Being lethargic have no perks you may think but you may know a story about a guy who was given a chance to have the land he can cover in a day on legs. It’s a well-known story. He died from exhaustion by the evening and in the end, he could only have 7 feet of land. 7 feet of land which is used to bury him.
Now death is a funny thing it makes you see thing in a different light, it makes you see them in the light of utter meaninglessness. It makes you see the underlying absurdity of everything. Like seriously what’s the point if you are going to die soon. What’s the point of anything then.
Oh, you don’t see it like that you think what matters, is life. Life that you are living today not the death that you will have tomorrow. Well, to that I would say you don’t understand what “you are going to die” truly means. But it’s not your fault you are not supposed to. You are meant for living, you only understand living, not dying. You are not supposed to comprehend what death means. But let’s say you are about to die in a minute. Now, everything starts losing its meaning.
Now, you feel what was the point of all this. What it all even amounts to. No matter how much you believe in soul and things you learned in your specific religion. Everything starts to lose sense in the moments of dying.
No matter how much you patch it with your belief, when one sees death approaching in front of them, the absurdity and hopelessness are so evident, it’s hard to cover. When someone sees death in front of them a glint of nihilism gets into them no matter how optimistically they have lived their life. Now imagine if someone can live with that sort of feeling throughout their life. Someone who can see death from miles away and can feel the same futility and absurdity throughout the life.
You see, nihilism can produce different effects, and one is you becoming so indifferent to everything that you don’t care about anything. It affects your approach towards life. It affects your ambitions and your attitude to get things done. One become uninterested and as a result becomes lethargic.
Nihilism leads to depression, you may think. But nihilism only leads to depression if you want meaning, if you don’t want meaning to begin with, it will give you freedom. When you are a little slow in life you will get to see things differently. Things you would have glossed over otherwise.
You want meaning, but then you run through every second of life. What we don’t understand is that behind all the facade what we truly have is just time. Life is nothing but a duration of time that you have, that’s all. And you spend that time in running, running to where? To death of course. To run as fast as you can, as hard as you can. It’s a funny thing isn’t it, that we run to find and reach meaning but the very act of running and then dying is the reason that presents life as meaningless endeavor.
Maybe, if you were little lazy you may have found some meaning. Only in small moments you can find some meaning rather than big goals which only consumes your little life and at the end leave you with meaninglessness.
Well, if nothing else, if the guy was a little lazy, he wouldn’t have exhausted and killed himself in that story and also would have enjoyed a moderate size of piece of land.
